BREATHE N BOUNCE BY polarlinesUSA

 I just got back from Civana again and although it was very needed and necessary, the day I returned I was broken.  I went there to try to put some things together and I thought I was leaving there in a good place.  Turns out that wasn't the case as I fell apart a day later.  So I talk about that along with many things on my mind.  It is FUCKING HEAVY.  Fair warning.

 I talk about my experience about being a juror today.  In 50 years they finally got me, those bastards.  However, I find a way like I always do to bring it back to mental health, stability ,mindfulness, and all those things we talk about on this show. It's a fun listen to me ranting about the jury shit.  However, I talk about what kept me going through that as well as what keeps me going in life.

 As I turned 50 this week, I take a look back at my life as whole.  The good and the bad and examine where do I go next.  Where can we all find common ground with the person we were and the person we are now.  Finding those good parts we had, and merging them with the person we are now.  Letting go of things that don't serve us.  This is my battle.  This is my aim.  I want to be the best I can be, every day.  So come on and do it with me stoner!!!!!

People like to say high school is the best time of your life.  Well first I would say tell that to the Yellowjackets.  Secondly, mine sucked.  So I will talk about it in great detail here.  And if you are a high school graduate, you might want to check this shit out.  I promise you will be able to relate and walk away with strong feelings.  

May is always hard for me, and it has been hitting me hard.  People I love don't receive me the way I want them to because of my actions in the past.  I acknowledge it and I talk about the complicated relationship I have had with people, especially women.  It 's because of my insecure and anger and I have to deal with it so I talk about that along with other stuff that's heavy.