The Mr. Nobody Podcast

I probably fight because I didn't feel safe.

Are we the only animal that isn't born knowing how to protect itself?

Here's a thought.

I have finally become the father I would want to be for you.

Ironic.

Today I woke up from a dream.

I thought I knew how to fight, I found out I didn't

I am remaking myself.

You would love this.

Ironic.

In this document, I bring together my studies in shamanism, psychology,, religion, prehistory and archeology and process the material through my personal work with grief and ancient healing rituals that use entheogens.

I composed all the music but for a few sound effects and quoutes. I like to think of these pieces as dreamscapes, that allow for a broad pallet to explore difficult emotions. Use headphones.

Thank you to my Profesor and advisor. Mark S.

Thank you so much for sharing this journey. I share a primal fear and two dreams in this episode.

I feel like he's playing the guitar sometimes, thru me. Same thing with  training, it's an altered state, a symbolic language of human geometry. Don't give up. 

I share a book that laid on my night stand for 2 months annd then opened my mind to a new and yet ancient worldview. A see a path.

And I weave in a few standards for fun. Enjoy

What I would tell my son if he were alive. I imagine a radical art project. I can't seem to talk about the training.

I don't trust the system. How did we get here. 

He's is at the bottom, what can I do?

Did I push you too much?

Pythagoaras was murdered by a mob.

How do I undo me?

After my son died, I became aware of an inner life that I'd hidden from myself.

At points I was certainly experiencing an altered state, I went in and out for weeks and months of catatonic moments and welcomed them to the waking-reality of my son's overdose death.

I make these episode to reflect the delirium of an inner state, reflecting my subconcious.

Having experienced profound altered states, I wonder if I could drum myself into a trance, from waking to dreaming.

I had a breakthru in my training after many weeks of pressure. I play tomorrow night. Every gig is important.

Miss you son.