Recovering Out Loud

Ten recovery myths that keep people stuck — from someone sober again after a hard relapse. Almost everything I thought I knew about getting sober turned out to be wrong, and some of it nearly cost me my life. In this solo episode I go through ten of the biggest myths I hear online, from friends, and in the news — why each one sticks around, and what's tended to be truer in my actual experience.

I'm a year and a half sober after seven and a half years of continuous sobriety and a relapse I didn't see coming. So I've been on both sides of most of these: the version of me that believed them, and the version that lived long enough to find out they were false. This isn't clinical advice and I'm not a doctor — it's lived experience, peer to peer. Take what you like and leave the rest.

We cover:

• Whether you really have to "hit rock bottom" first (and what a bottom actually is)
• Why addiction was never about willpower for me
• The "once you're sober you're cured" trap — and why sober is the starting line, not the finish
• What relapse does and doesn't erase
• Why "do it on your own" kept me sick
• The high-functioning myth ("I'm not bad enough to need help")
• Medication in recovery — and why that's between you and your doctor
• The moderation fantasy
• The idea that recovery is boring
• Whether you have to "want it" before treatment can work

If one of these lands for you, that's the point. Write your own myths in the comments.

CHEF DEV IS BACK...A counsellor once asked Devan: what's wrong with the way you feel? This is that conversation.

Chef Devan Rajkumar Today, he travels and cooks across different cities, constantly learning, evolving, and refining his approach. Every kitchen, every culture, and every experience adds to how he creates. He stays curious, asks questions, and continues to grow because great food comes from understanding, not ego.

He was filling out intake forms in treatment, and where they asked why he got high, he wrote the honest answer — I love the feeling of it. The counsellor read it back and asked him one question that took years to really land: what's wrong with the way you feel? That question sits underneath everything we get into here.

We start somewhere lighter — cutting the "jacked guys" out of an Instagram feed — and end up on steroids, peptides and Ozempic as drugs, and the question neither of us fully answered: are you still sober if you're on gear? From there it goes where the real ones go. Body shaming and the comments that stick — the uncle who says "you got fat" before he says hello. The guilt and shame under the attention. And the root of it: what are you actually escaping from?

Devan opens up about the mask, the people-pleasing, and putting the oxygen mask on everyone but himself. We talk about how you help someone who won't help themselves, the bridge you can't see until you've crossed it, and why early recovery feels impossible from the inside. Then the stuff that keeps us here: quitting cigarettes and finally deciding if I put it in my body, it has to be good for me. The double life and the secrets that fuel relapse — because in my experience it was never the substance, it was the behaviours around it. The strivers' curse — trading the addiction for a stacked calendar and an overtrained body. Spirituality as humility and gratitude. Seva — selfless service with nobody watching. And a moment I didn't expect, where Devan gets honest about where his own program is thin right now, and decides to do something about it.

Nobody in this one has it all figured out. That's the point. If you've ever sat in a room thinking you're the worst one doing this, this episode is for you.

This is a peer conversation — lived experience, not clinical or professional advice.

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What happens when you tell people you're sober — and how to handle every reaction.

Getting sober is one job. Telling people you're sober is a completely separate one — and it never really ends. New party, new drink in someone's outstretched hand, and there you are deciding again how to say it. In this solo episode, Anthony walks through the reactions you'll actually get when you tell people you don't drink, what each one really means (spoiler: it's usually about them, not you), and how much you actually owe anyone.

This is one person's lived experience, not a rulebook. Everybody's disclosure looks different — take what helps and leave the rest.

Inside this episode:

• The five reactions — the Defensive Drinker, the "Good For You," the Pusher, the Pity, and the Fighter — and what's driving each
• Why disclosure and anonymity are two different things (you can be open about being sober without ever naming a program)
• The full menu of what to say, from "I don't drink" as a complete sentence to the lines that shut down a pusher
• Handling it in the wild: dating, work, family, and the old friend groups who only ever knew you with a drink in your hand
• The reframe that takes their reaction off your shoulders — and the upside almost nobody mentions

If you're finding your footing in sobriety, being open about it out loud turns a private struggle into something with a door in it. That's the whole point of the show.

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Recovering Out Loud — Real stories.

The Four Agreements, read through a recovery lens — words, resentment, assumptions, and doing your best.

A quiet 1997 book that keeps showing up in the rooms, even though it wasn't written for them. I go

through all four agreements and how each maps onto staying sober — the self-talk that runs on

autopilot, the gossip that turns fellowship into a rumor mill, the resentments we build out of

things that were never about us, and the perfectionism that punishes an imperfect day into a

relapse. Peer perspective and lived experience only — not professional advice.

Pick one agreement. Live with it for seven days. Notice what shifts.

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The thing that almost killed me and the thing keeping me sober are the same voice: ego.

In this solo episode I break down ego the way it actually shows up in recovery — not the loudmouth cliché, but the quiet self-centeredness underneath it. Ego has two faces that trade shifts: the top of the seesaw ("I've got this, the rules don't apply to me") and the bottom ("I'm the worst, nobody's been through what I've been through"). Grandiosity and self-pity are the same lie wearing different clothes — the lie that I'm the center of the story.

I get into how ego keeps us sick: it's the bouncer at the door of help. Terminal uniqueness ("my situation is different, so I don't have to do the work"). Being right over being well. Comparison — measuring my insides against everyone else's outsides, the thief of joy. And the complacency trap, where the longer you're sober the quieter ego gets, until it whispers one won't hurt. I share the Jamaica story — two years sober, funnels on the beach, and the pause that let me play the tape all the way through.

Then resentment and relapse: how ego keeps a ledger, charges interest, and builds the on-ramp back one justification at a time. (Yes, there's an elevator story.)

The back half is the antidote — humility. Not humiliation, not thinking less of yourself, but thinking of yourself less. Right-sizing. Asking for help before I'm on fire. Staying teachable. Service that inconveniences me. Getting honest with someone, because secrets keep you sick. The goal was never to kill the ego — recovery is an ego-deflating process. Start from zero every day, catch the voice a little quicker, and stop letting it drive the bus.

If no one's told you yet today: I love you. And remember — recovery is simple, not easy.

Book mentioned: Emotional Sobriety: The Next Frontier

New Beginnings Recovery Home — this episode is supported by New Beginnings Recovery Home, a disclosed partner of the show. If you or someone you love needs a next step, DM the word HOME and we'll point you in the right direction. newbeginningsrecovery.ca